I'm a born in 3rd generation. I knew something wasn't quite right probably by about age 9 or 10. But like a good little girl I thought my doubts were just me; there must be something wrong with me because I didn't see what everyone else did.
Over the years I saw unspeakable acts go unpunished and get swept under the rug (especially by elders families), this coupled with the way the congregation treated my family and I made me say, “if this is how Jehovah’s loving happy people act then I don’t want to spend forever with them.” I wanted to leave but was too scared; this unfortunately led to me getting baptized in my late teens just to get everyone off my back. In the many years since then the same horrible acts have continued, so has the poor treatment. As time went on I started to question things, this led to many discoveries convincing me that JWs had it wrong, the hypocrisy too became more and more apparent.
My resolve that the organization and watchtower are a cult has grown the more I seek out the real truth about them and their false teachings.
I am still active, if you can call it that; I do just what I have to do to stay off the radar so I can continue association with my family. I figure I have more of chance helping them see the light by staying than leaving; so for now I wait. As horrible as it may seem to be leading this double life, I can be thankful for sites such as this to let it out so the poison doesn’t build.